Day 5. Went to FILs house today to help him. He is very concerned about me. Says I lokk great, but wonders how I am. We talked a little about it. He asked if I am lonely and have found anyone. I told him, I just don't want anyone or anything right now, I am very confused about all of that just now. He asked me if my feeling towards his daughter had changed and I told him I didn't know, because I don't.
The pain grew inside me today, the feeling is very difficult to express. I feel like I am being ripped in half. She left me a voice mail on my phone regarding the taxes and she needs money for this and that. I don't know what she expected to get back in taxes, but it isn't much. The call was from Wednesday. And the message was about how she is owed some of the money from the house and she is owed this and , delete.....
I don't know how I feel about her right now....I truly don't. God knows how I feel right now, because I don't. Has anyone out there gone through this period or struggle of not being sure where you are at...?
