She said she would still be in my life just not the way I wanted
You sound a little doormat like to me. Why is she under the impression that she's going to be in your life at all? Think into the future...do you really think that you want her hanging out? If you actually get divorced and find someone else, what is the new girl gonna think? Personally, I'd point out that you aren't sure yet that she really will be in your life.
Also, who is paying for all this stuff for her apartment? I hope it is her.
As for all this dating discussion...I would quit throwing her bones by saying, "I just want to be with you." Do you know how weak that sounds to her? I'd say, "No, I think what I'm going to do is start working on some things in my own life first. When I feel all set by myself, maybe then I'll be ready to date." And I'm not just saying that you should say that, but you should start living it. If she's out of the house already, I'd limit this get together to talk about dating stuff. Your social life shouldn't be her concern, and it's okay to tell her that you don't intend to discuss that stuff with her. What makes her think that she has a stake in your life anymore?
You cannot be lonely if you like the person you're alone with. Dr. Wayne Dyer
