Journaling....
So ever since then she hasn't brought it up... I haven't given her an opportunity to do it again either. Ive readjusted my work schedule a few times to meet to demands of having one car.

She's been nice to me the entire week too.
V day comes and I get her a few books by her favorite author just to show her that I care. No mushy cards no BS. She smiles and thanks me a few times.
But as in ever Vday she has to work so again its me and the gang.
Our boys spend the night at a buddy's house so its just me and D8.
We make jello and watch TV and just in general, be goofy.
It was a good night \:\) I also talked to my homie Punk, on the phone for a time too.
Later I get a text, "I wont be driving tonight, be home in the morning."
Ugh!
Ya that irritated me some.
Thanks for talking me down Punk!
The toughest thing is D8 waking me up and asking wheres Mommy?
Why didn't she come home?
All I could say was "I don't know Hunny."
All yesterday I'm indifferent to her. She knows I'm not happy with her. I don't act PO'd but just "not happy" to her.

We watch the Daytona 500. GO JR!!!!!!!!
The boys have their buddy spend the night at our house so W goes and buys wings for all of us.
She alternates between the book and the race.
I'm still indifferent towards her.
Later she gets a call from a long time friend of ours who lives in Florida. I spoke to her a few days before and brought her up to speed on our sitch. She also called me on the 14th to wish me a happy Vday.
she knows what I'm going through because she had a BF who cheated on her as well.Always our FL friend didn't know about half the crap that W was doing. Must have been an interesting convo because W took it in another room and they were on the phone for quite some time.

Later after kids are settled she is still reading. She is the type that once she starts a book she will read it though often in one or two days.
I tuck the gang in and wish everyone a good night.
Cut to this morning and she is awake. Hmmm??
I asked her if she finished her book and she said yes, about 2am.
Its now 6am. Cant sleep? she replies yes.
I wonder if that's guilt and the Lord at work?

Gman
Me 40
W 30
kids
B 11
B 10
D 8
Been here off and on since 06.
PA Confirmed Dec 08..
With God, anything is possible.
Do or do not there is no try.
Sometimes you have to roll the hard six...