WAW - Very confused and devestated - pt 2

[confusedinpa]

It was a tough end to the day

She was back in full blown WAW mode as we were starting after we put the kids to bed

I thought it was going to be different as the post kids bed time started by her complaining about her back again. I asked if she needed a massage again, she said perhaps a little later. But as we watched Lost - it was the Episode Walter's mother (who wasn't married to the father Michael) moved and married her boss, she got withdrawn again.
I guess I should be used to it as this been the trend - whether its an up day or down day.

Perhaps I'm expecting too much after such a short amount of time. We're creating happy moments with the kids, but they would be the same whether I was there or not. She's not open to trying to create any happy experiences with just me.

We didn't talk much as we fell asleep. She fell asleep almost instantly she laid down. I asked if she still needed a backrub and she said her back was fine

We have our counseling appointment tomorrow. I'm sure its going to be a tough nite again as we seemed so focused on talking about why I didn't fill her love tanks. I still don't see how it helps