I'm afraid to say that she's just hit me again, 4 slaps to the back of the head, and I just couldn't bring myself to phone the police. I did pick up the phone and dial the number but she knew exactly what I was planning on doing and the shear look of fear and realisation on her face made me stop.
I just don't know what to do anymore as even my family and closest friends are now telling me to just forget it and give up on everything. I don't want to cos despite everything I still love my wife very much and want us to have a future together, yeah she's said a hell of a lot of things to try and hurt me lately but these things are not having the effect she desires and I still love her and want us to build on our relationship.
She just isn't herself at the moment. I can see that and so can many other people but she thinks she's acting perfectly normal. I made our daughter a meal earlier as my wife was in bed suffering with a hangover, my wife came down saw what I was doing and went absolutely ballistic - paranoia set in with her and she said the only reason I was doing this was to score points and try to prove that she was an unfit mother who couldn't look after her daughter - excuse me but my daughter told me she was hungry, I thought my wife was asleep and therefore made her something to eat! Wheres the problem and why start?
My wife often reacts in this way to every single thing I do as she believes I have some master plan of some description to try and take everything away from her! If I'm honest, yeah maybe I do have a master plan and that is to try and resolve our differences, repair our marriage and let us become a happy family again! I am just trying to act as normally as possible and get on with things, if something needs doing I'll do it.
Trying to act as cool as possible at the moment and just not talk about whats going on but its just so hard to do especially when she's trying to wind me up all the time and provoke some form of reaction from me, gotta admit that I'm sat here now dying to go upstairs and try to reason with her some more but I know I shouldn't and hopefully I won't! It's just that she won't listen to anything I or anybody else says if it doesn't fit in with her way of thinking and that's what drives me mad.
The only way to describe her is Jekyll & Hyde, I genuinely don't know which one I'm gonna get when I wake up each morning. Her personallity and mind changes like the wind! Not too sure what her plans are as I've been told 3 different things from 3 different people in about the last hour! i) She told me that she's gonna screw me for everything and get the courts to kick me out, ii) she told my mom that she's thinking of moving away, iii) she's told a mutual friend that she's looking for somewhere local so as to cause as little disruption to our daughter as possible.
I wish there was something I could say or do that would make her realise what she's doing is not in anybodys best interests but I know there isn't and that I just have to weather the storm and hope we both manage to come out of this still together.
Just gotta hang in there I suppose and never give up. I know it's worth the fight I've just gotta hope she starts to see this as well!
