My first step out of Newcomers

[Can it work]

I've just come back from my IL's house. Both my IL's were out so it was just my Wee Man, my W and I. Pretty much as soon as I arrived though my W went out to give me time with my S. I bathed him and played with him for a bit. He was in high spirits so I enjoyed it. My W then came back before Wee Man went to bed. She's still being as dry as ever with me. I'd be lying if I said it didn't get to me still. Every time I see her I still get a knot in my stomach because I still love as much as ever. I know it will get easier with time though. I'm sure there's no surprises to anyone here that I wish I could flick a switch which would make my W want me again. I think I'm learning to be patient with time so that'll help me ride this thing out. In the mean time, I just need to keep enjoying my life as much as I possibly can.

My W had already heard from her friends that I was out enjoying myself last night. There's no way I could tell what she thought about it though. She just shows no emotion at all when I'm around. I did ask her why she hadn't gone out herself last night and asked me to watch Wee Man. It was her best friend's birthday. She told me she still didn't feel ready to go drinking. So, I guess that means she's possibly not enjoying her single life as much as I thought. She still wants a single life though and right now that's something I have no power to change. It's just the waiting game now.

Kev