Our D slept over a friends house last night. I asked my W if she wanted to go out for a drink. She declined my invitation saying she already made plans with her GF. Instead of staying home all night I went out. I got home around 2AM and she wasn't home by the time I fell a sleep at 3:30. In the morning she was sleeping in our bedroom and I slipped into bed to catch up on my sleep. A few hours later I told her I was upset she didn't call.
She said she always calls and I said it wasn't true. She said if she makes plans without someone she follows through with them. I told her that she couldn't do that with me because everytime I ask you to do something you say you don't know or no. So you can't break plans with me if you don't make any.
Then I told her I was disappointed she didn't go out with me. If she told her friend she was going out with her husband she would understand. Then I called her a looser. She said she doesn't call me names so why do I have to. She does call me name so she isn't perfect. I told my W how we are only room mates. That we live together and she's always comes to me for money. But if I ask her to do anything alone with me she declines. I asked her if this was someone else, what would you call them. You only call them when you need something. I told her the next time she needs money then go ask her GFs.
Then I showed my W that I was wearing my wedding ring. I stopped wearing it b/c it hurt so much to be reminded of our terrible M. I told her I can't hurt anymore so I put the ring back on. What we have is a bad M. I told her if I had a magic ball I wouldn't have M her. I said if the same magic ball told me about D11 I would still M my W but it would be my decision.
Our argument wasn't an angry one. Whe I called my W a loser it was one of the most difficult things I ever had to say to her. I told her our M couldn't get any lower. I said there's no way but up from here. Then I told her I don't care anymore I can keep on staying on my side of the bed. I can keep on going out by myself. I said how I feel like I'm being punished over and over again for something she only knows or forgot what made her angry.
Finally, I told my W about something I read. How kissing is important to get an R going. Since we're not kissing then there's no way our M will get better. So why should I care what you do. I asked for a kiss but she turned her head. So I said I guess you don't want to work on this. Then she gave me a quick peck on the lips.
