Bub,

You are no more of idiot than me. I "get it" all finally now, too, and it's prolly just too late for me. I hope it's not for you. I don't think it is.

You are doing everything you can NOW. That is all you can do. We can't change the past no matter how much we want to.

H wanting the D drives me insane. Him staying on the fence makes me crazy. I don't wish this on anyone, not even my worst enemy.

It sounds like tonight went okay for you though. More good than bad. Baby steps.

Melissa

"Standing knee deep in a river and dying of thirst."

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