True Love or True Fog? Part II - The Fertile Void

[Silver Fox]

Journaling a dream,

I've had many dreams about H but never about OW until last night:

I was in the house I grew up in and H was there with OW. Many of her family members were there too - aunts, uncles, grandparents, parents - all sitting around the dining room table. H and I were on the sofa and I said to him "Why did you have to bring all these people into our lives?" Then he gets up and they all follow him out the front door, OW follows last and I very aggressively push her back and say "Oh no, you're not going anywhere, I need to talk with you. I take her face between both my hands and start saying over and over again - HE'S MARRIED! HE'S MARRIED! HE'S MARRIED! and with that I woke up.

I've always heard it's not the story of the dream it's the feeling you have after the dream. Well, I'm not a violent person but pushing her and grabbing her head and trying to scream some sense into her felt really good! She also felt little and insignificant and I woke up feeling powerful.

So because of that dream and most definitely this board I've had a very powerful feeling V Day. I also bought a dozen red roses for myself. Next time H comes over he will see them on the coffee table right when he opens the door. Maybe, just maybe a faint little click will go off in his head.