Thanks for the Valentine's wishes Stacy and Karen. I spent it with my family and that's the best. We didn't celebrate or anything, just had dinner at home. I don't need excitment all the time, my happiest moments are spending it with my family.
Doing lot of thinking while I am here, though. Trying to figure out if I should move back home here with my family where the kids can grow up with their grandparents and my brother, his wife and their cousins. Maybe this would be part of my Plan B. Early during discovery of A, I threatened H that I would move home. But now I am really considering it. It's so calm here, we could have lots of family time. We are not constantly waiting for H to show up to see the kids every weekend. A lot less stress for us and for H. But you see, if we move then I know H would just totally disappear into his fantasyland world and never return. I know he won't come to pursue us so I need to make sure this is what I want for what it is and not to manipulate him. That's why I have taken the time to carefully think this through.
Well, I haven't decided but it's on my mind, I think the kids and I could have a happy life here.
Me:39 H:40 S:9 D:7 First Bomb ONS:June 07 Second Bomb OW: March 08 Separated: March 08 M:15 yrs T:18 yrs H deep into A with OW Achieved ACCEPTANCE May 30, 09
