\My wife is going to leave me in 5 days--help!

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So weird. She came over last night to spend the night with my daughter. We all watched a movie together and then she started asking about how it went w/ the MC. I was very vague and told her very little. I think that if the MC confronts her w/ some of this stuff, she won’t come back to the sessions. She asked for a hug and then started kissing me and said she needed a shower, did I want to join her. Strictly non-sexual though, just hugging and kissing—drove me nuts. She kept saying, I don’t want you to get the wrong idea, I’m not moving back home. On the way into the bathroom, she saw how clean it was and started crying and held me and said how she was a POS because she didn’t keep the house clean when I was gone. She said I wasn’t going to want her back when she’s ready to come back. I said I understand you were overwhelmed. She said no that wasn’t an excuse. After the shower we laid down and she talked about how she didn’t care about anything anymore, since my son had run away in HS was when it started she said and she just wanted to be by herself. She seems so depressed and self critical. I gave her compliments when I saw her body last night—wow, she looks incredible but she deflects every compliment given saying no, I’ve still go cellulite, still need to lose more weight, yada, yada, yada. We cuddled bascially all night. She told me this was the last time she was doing this as it wasn’t fair to me and she didn’t want to give me the wrong impression. Woke up this morning and was the best sleep I’ve had since I’ve been home—which isn’t fair! She got up and started talking about bills. Busted out her laptop and started going on about what needs to be paid, etc. Told me she is going to have to buy all new stuff and started surfing for pots and pans, etc. Asked if she could borrow the truck to move the formal living room furniture—told her I didn’t want it if she was leaving as she purchased it and would need a place to sit. I asked her how she could be so businesslike and she said she didn’t know. Felt myself getting upset so I got up and went to the other room. At the suggestion of the MC, I had gotten her a card and a small box of chocolate. The MC also said to write a note and stick it inside so I did. I basically said, I don’t know how we got to the point we are at. I would like to apologize for how I’ve reacted and while I don’t understand and will not try to understand I love you enough to want you to be happy. So, I will respect your choice if that is what you think will make you happy. I do hope you find happiness; I really want you to believe that. Then at the end I asked her if she wanted to go to dinner and to let me know either way (this was the MC’s idea). She accepted, although we’ll see if she really goes. She kept going on today about how she just wants to be alone and doesn’t want anyone and is just so apathetic about everything. She just wants to live, work, and socialize. So strange and so uncomfortable. I honestly think she is depressed and thinks this is the only way out. Like she is a detriment to me to stay here? At this point while I am really, really hurt, I am more confused than anything. Something is not right in her head and while I would love to take care of her, she would tell me again that I had my chance and she doesn’t want my help. Everyone she has mentioned and everyone who I've talked to have tried to reason with her to no avail. Really, really dissappointing. Trying to be cool but really hard to do so when she is so business like.

Any thoughts??? I am really perplexed...