WAW - Very confused and devestated - pt 2

[confusedinpa]

It is so hard to find hope. Especially on Vday

I'm sad but know I need to stay positive

My wife is at least going through the motions so she's not shutting me out completely. So that leaves me some hope. I know I hurt her really bad

I'm at the monster truck show with my kids

Its hard to stay positive as I didn't even get a hug or kiss goodbye. She gave me the 5 languages of love book for Vday but there was no happy vday or hug or kiss. I know I'm being selfish

I feel she didn't give me a chance as now she's saying she made her decision back in Sept. She said she told me 3 times before she filed. I don't recall. She said she knows it went right through me. Does seem to make a difference though