My Sad WAH Story: Is there Hope?

[MomInPain]

If I actually hire an A and fight for better spousal maint and CS doesn't that pretty much put any hope for us in the crapper, or are we already there?

He has given me everything in the house and the house. 1/2 of the 401k and 1/2 of his pension which he only paid into for 10 years (these I will not get for quite a while, probably years).

With that also comes a house payment so I will be living on about 1,000 a month. That will have to cover all bills and food. I really don't think I can do this. As a family we could barely make it on 4,000 a month now I'm supposed to make it on 1/2 of that with only one member of the family gone.

Something just doesn't sit right with this.

Do I really want to fight for a man who up and leaves like this? I am really trying to rack my brain as to why I miss him and still love him. It's fading quick.