I also still feel H and I were a perfect match. Years ago when a friend once asked me how my H compared to others I said he is a 99% perfect H. My H was so surprised to hear that because I never told him and often nagged him about something.
Do you think I am courageous to meet new guys? I never looked at it that way. All I know is that I have to be very careful because you never know what you let yourself in for. I noticed that some guys say some very suspicious things.
Anyway, a few days ago I wrote to H a firm reply that I did not agree with something he suggested re finances. I also said he should answer my question. He replied that I should not be so uptight about things and read his e-mail again. That he answered my question. Furthermore, he wrote about his financial state and that the women where he is all expect foreigners to just pay for everything but don't care about them no matter how nice they are to them. That his life is in a mess but I would not care and why should I since it was him who left me. He seems to be very unhappy.
I finally sent my e-mail I prepared some days ago and also replied to his e-mail. I had the feeling that he wanted to manipulate me again in doing what he wanted, but I was not fooled.
Unfortunately, my GF got ill and was not able to go to the Jazz concert this evening. I didn't feel like going on my own and called another GF, but she had the same illness last week and did not feel well enough yet to join me. So I stayed at home and watched some TV.
On Sunday I will have my "first date". That's what the guy who I will meet called it. I had to laugh at it. It feels very strange to call it a date! I used to call it a date if I met somebody I liked and/or fancied, but this time I have not even seen the guy before!
