If you find the time and think of me, either send positive thoughts and energy my way and/or say a prayer for me that I find God's will in my journey and I'm able to work out my 'stuff' sooner rather than later.
Sometimes we are so desparate to get out of the place we have fallen into that we fail to see the things God is trying to teach us when we're there. He may just leave us there until we figure it out.
You certainly have a lot to deal with right now. Rest in the assurance that you are not alone. God created the world from nothing. Certainly He can solve your problems in an instant. Continue to 'seek' out those who can encourage you - men's group at church?, 'knock' on those closed doors to see who answers, and don't be afraid to 'ask' for help. It's humbling, but put yourself in the shoes of the one being asked. If you had the means I'm sure you would love to help someone out. So do others.
Matthew 7:7"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.9"Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!
