I woke up this morning feeling calm. Don't know if it is because I finally slept all night without waking up or not tossing and turning but I feel at peace.
My girls were talking about Valentine's Day this morning and I was so afraid it would trigger something inside me to pull me back down but it didn't. They were telling me about the candy and stuff their father got them.
Of course this year my box of candy goes to someone else but that is ok. I don't need it anyway. If I want candy, I can buy my own. This will be the first year I don't have to buy anything special either. It doesn't upset me.
As I look in the mirror I see someone new, someone that has a yearning for life again. Someone that smiles back at me. (It could be because now that my eyes are open, I see Edward staring back at me every morning)
You know, I have something better than a valentine or a box of chocolates...I have each and every one of you. I have the greatest friends in the world. I wouldn't trade any of you for anything. (well, maybe a couple of you....just kidding)
Through thick and thin, I know I can count on all of you. So, through this post, I am sending each and every one of you a very special valentine from my heart.
