"My W made me to believe that she was never coming back"

The question is.. do you think she could?

"what is someone to do, sit around and rot?"

Some people do that.

"I don't know that I will ever let the marriage go because this is not what I wanted."

So.. you are still "rotting"?

"To the same degree, I couldn't just sit around waiting for that hope any longer, it was time for me to find happiness again."

So.. she forced you to do it?

"Did I find happiness in my relationship today?"

Where does this "happy" take you.. 5 years from now? You went looking for it.. you should know where it will take you. Right?

"does that still mean that I have closed the door to ever reconcile with W, no I haven't at least not until it is too late."

Define "late".

"This is very tough and just like D, I don't wish it on anyone."

This.. is easy. But it leaves me with the question.. are you ready for tough?

Relax
Eat
Think
Act normal
React.. Smartly.
Do something different.
Emulate.
Do Work.

Lets get "RETARDED" in here.