Hi Poet: I couldn't help but read what you last wrote to Laurie. I'm not sure what is going on between you and your husband, but I hope I can try to encourage you.
My husband left me out of the blue on August 21, 2006. He didn't talk to me for 1-1/2 years. A couple of times, I tried to email him with no response. I left a couple of messages here and there, still no response. If anyone should have not been talking it would have been 'me'. I chose to not fight or be angry. I cried a lot, but never to him. He filed for a divorce. I didn't fight with him, ever. I decided to be agreeable, always.
Anyway, Poet, last year, out of the blue, he called me! He called to ask a question about taxes and to tell me about hia buying a new condo. Now, he calls me every 2 to 3 weeks! He has his place. I have mine. But, Poet, he calls me and we talk and laugh. He called me on Christmas, he responds to me if I call him. We got together a couple of weeks ago, too. I love him so very much. I feel that I am taking care of him, even if it is from a distance. I will always remain hopeful.
Choosing not to do anything and to be quiet is still doing something. My H and I, by law, have been divorced a little more than a year. Do I want to remarry? I am working on it. It's teeny-tiny turtle steps, but I'll take today over two years ago any day!
So, Poet, hold on tight. As hard as it is, take time for you. Take it slow. Journal. Go for walks...or runs. Imagine the best happening and 'believe' that it will. Learn about yourself. Learn to be the best 'you' that you can be. Do things that you always wanted to do. I am doing that, too. Make small goals. Some days are easier than others--a rollercoaster ride. Just don't give up. Ok? Write to me if you want. I'll be here. K?
