JDOllie's story #5

[K4D]

JD,

I have to 2x4 you. I know its been a very long time that you have been putting up with this and you have given it a very valiant effort. Nobody can question that. But sometimes M can take longer to repair than what we think it can. You are definitely getting closer to God and that is excellent. Definitely have a relationship with Jesus. Ask him to fill you of that emptyness.

I would encourage you to keep up your efforts. If nothing else because God doesn't give up on any of us. Pray for your wife to retun to God. I don't know what yalls religious life was like before. But pray for her. If she returns to God, she will return to you. I am doing the same thing. Granted, I haven't been at this nearly as long as you have. So I won't at all discount your patience and efforts at all.

But as someone who does not want to see marriages and families fail, I have to encourage you to keep it up. Keep DBing. Don't be the one to file. If she is going to, let her do it. Keep your honor by being true to the end. And even if she does file, that doesn't necessarily mean its over. People get back together even after divorce. Be strong. I know you are. What I would say is move on in your life and DB at the same time. She is never really going to be out of your life since yall have kids together.

If she does file, then your kids will know who did the finale at the end and will be very proud of you. Set the example for them.

I know you are fed up and tired. And nobody can blame you for this. But I do want to encourage you if I can in any way to keep up the efforts and be the one standing tall at the end if it comes to that. Don't give up. You may just be getting tested right now. You never know. Something could happen that you just can't see right now and yall could end up back together and stronger than ever. It seems bleak right now. But turn to God and hand it over to him and let it be.

I care about you and your situation. Try and find the strength to be strong. Read Hosea in the bible. That guy had God tell him to go buy his wife out of slavery after she did some things. Hosea stayed faithful to God and eventually God brought back his wife.

I'm not saying she will return as only God can see the future and may have other plans. But let those plans fall into place. Don't push your own plans into what may already be planned.

Kevin