My outlets are few. I can deal with it, but loneliness is the one thing in life I fear. I really mean fear...
Try as hard and as much as you like to build your faith. You will never be able to hold on to it if you carry fear. Your fear will rob you of your faith in a very short time. Hence the back and forth struggle.
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I am afradi of completely detaching from her because I know what that will mean, and I am here to keep that from happening. I am detached, mostly, I know. But complete detachment, in my heart and soul will be just that. And that will not bring her back, save my marriage or do anything else, but make me move on down the road without her, without and desire for her to be there. Fear number 2. there you have it. I can completely detach. I have no doubt. Once that happens, reconciliation or anything remotely close to that will virtually be out the window. I believe that to be true. I am still forgiving, everyday, I am waiting, on me, every day. Waiting on me to decide where to go and what to do...
There is a healthy way to detach with who you love and desire, and still hold the hope, love, patience, and acceptance require to FIRST heal you and then possibly heal your marriage.
