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Will you still go out for drinks and meals with him? I can't believe he didn't say anything. It is all so civilised, thats what got me so mad with my x.
I'm not really sure about going for drinks and meals with him..... I think I would, as we're supposed to be friends, but at the same time I'm not going to actively pursue the friendship while he's with the aubergine. I told him that not being able to discuss that big part of his life would make it difficult to be good and close friends, but he didn't seem to understand why that might be. I guess that there wasn't much left to say after the whole D conversation really. I just feel a bit sad for him- he's so lost- and I'm not angry. You live and learn don't you? No regrets.
mishka- thankyou for thinking of me. The tests are happening next Thursday. I don't think it's anything to be too worried about (although obviously neither the doctor nor the consultant agree!). I'll let you know what happens if they make a diagnosis (don't want to worry anyone with potential diagnostic options as I'm not worried myself).
Michelle- what would you like to know? H and I had the conversation initially over the phone with me angry and aggressive. I was NOT doing good DBing! It then continued more calmly the next day- we met at Starbucks, and then finished the conversation even more calmly a couple of days after that when he came to the flat to collect some of his things. It was odd because he was pretty hard about it at first, then upset, then resigned, then seemed sad. I was very upset after the first conversation but had regained my balance by the next day and was able to tell him how I feel/felt about things calmly and (I think) using neutral language. He just wasn't able to step up, or to express any opinion/feelings/anything himself which was disappointing but not unexpected given previous behaviour. Anyway, let me know what you want to know and I'll do my best to furnish detail.
So, today I moved our big office down into a little office for two and a half- me, CEO and part-time one other person (probably Cockney geezer). It's so wierd after being in such a big office, but it all had to be done quickly so there wasn't much time to dwell on it. CEO is still working on trying to secure my position and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that he manages to do it. He's so good- trying to take care of me.
Meanwhile some friendly guys have moved in to the office next door. They pop by during the day to have tea with me, or to say hello, which is nice. Tomorrow one of them has invited me to go to Borough Market with him for lunch and they've all invited me to join them for a drink after work. I haven't decided if I'll go yet but it's nice to be asked.
And finally, since this is the DB website, I think it's 3(?) weeks since I heard from H. I don't have any reason to contact him so I'm not going to as long as I don't have to. I was just pleased that I can't remember how long it's been since we had any contact, and I'm not bothered by it. Hurray!
