I wasn't planning on doing or saying anything to her, just basically going midnight dark. My taxes are being done tonight and will be over with. I am still shaking over what i text her last night. I have never done that with her or even communicated how I felt about this situation. No response from her and no more argumsent over taxes last night. I guess she got hit with my 2x4. i just feel like sitting in church, I really feel like just sitting there and running my head....No distractions, no noise, no confusion, me and him in His house, just to sit there....It has become a kind of safety blanket for me...Thanks again, for everything you do for me...this is really tearing me apart...Mentally, emotionally, physically, all of it....I am suppressing my rage becasue if it comes out, i don't think I can control it this time...
