Remember what we spoke about last night about giving it time before doing anything. I know you seemed concerned about what you thought you should be feeling at the moment. Your emotions will swing. Just take it slow, nothing has changed as of right now. It sucks, and again I'm sorry, but it's far from over.
When I finished typing her letter in, I was able to detach enough from the feelings to look at the typewritten version on the board.
And I was able to read between the lines.
I have changed so much on this journey that I feel like I'm looking at it with fresh eyes. I see the depression hiding behind the claims of "happiness".
"...am and will be happier..."? Not "I am happier". Believe none of what you hear and half of what you see....
"I hope...you...find someone who can truly love you back..." The guilt of wanting to feel something for me when she can't feel something for anything is eating away at her.
When you're done, you're done- why do I need to discuss the taxes with her if she's filing separately?
When you're DONE, you're DONE...no need to thumb through old pics of your honeymoon!
She's not done. She's grasping at straws trying to get away from what she THINKS is the problem.
I feel so badly. Not for me- for her. I so just want to reach out to her to tell her that it's going to be okay. To comfort her.
But it's her journey, and for the first time in our R, I can't do a damn thing to help her.
I feel like someone would feel if they were tied down and forced to watch their loved ones tortured.
PATIENCE AND FORTITUDE CONQUER ALL THINGS. -Ralph Waldo Emerson
DBing and MLC take their toll....Please provide exact CHANGE. -Jimbo
I'm sorry too Jim, but that sorry and $3.50 will buy you very small cup of coffee at Starbucks.
Fat Lady ain't signing yet ladies and gents, lets not mourn this right now, cause papers aren't signed, and so far it is just talk.
I think everyone is just sorry Jimbo has to go through this leg of the journey.
The benefit of it will show up down the road. I don't figure Jimbo for a man given to taking shortcuts. He will walk this out.
And hell no, the fat lady ain't singin' yet.
**If anyone has time, I need some serious strong male help over in the WAS forum with a poster called LonelyD. The man is teetering on that edge between true detachment and major bitterness. Sorry to hijack, Jimbo.
When I finished typing her letter in, I was able to detach enough from the feelings to look at the typewritten version on the board.
And I was able to read between the lines.
I have changed so much on this journey that I feel like I'm looking at it with fresh eyes. I see the depression hiding behind the claims of "happiness".
"...am and will be happier..."? Not "I am happier". Believe none of what you hear and half of what you see....
"I hope...you...find someone who can truly love you back..." The guilt of wanting to feel something for me when she can't feel something for anything is eating away at her.
When you're done, you're done- why do I need to discuss the taxes with her if she's filing separately?
When you're DONE, you're DONE...no need to thumb through old pics of your honeymoon!
She's not done. She's grasping at straws trying to get away from what she THINKS is the problem.
I feel so badly. Not for me- for her. I so just want to reach out to her to tell her that it's going to be okay. To comfort her.
But it's her journey, and for the first time in our R, I can't do a damn thing to help her.
I feel like someone would feel if they were tied down and forced to watch their loved ones tortured.
You're a real 'pull yourself up by the bootstraps' kind of guy, Jimbo.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Gman Me 40 W 30 kids B 11 B 10 D 8 Been here off and on since 06. PA Confirmed Dec 08.. With God, anything is possible. Do or do not there is no try. Sometimes you have to roll the hard six...
I wanted to give all of you a heartfelt thank you for the outpouring of support. It means much more than I can say to be able to share this journey with the great people I have had the privilege to meet here. God bless you all.
Just a short note to say that when it rains it pours.....I am now getting slammed at work by several VERY LARGE projects that are coming back to bite me in the arse. Looks like I'm going to be gone for awhile. I don't know how soon I'll be able to come back to the boards, but just wanted to let everybody know that I didn't go and off myself or anything stupid like that.
Thank you all again for being there for me. See you soon. (I hope! )
-Jimbo
PATIENCE AND FORTITUDE CONQUER ALL THINGS. -Ralph Waldo Emerson
DBing and MLC take their toll....Please provide exact CHANGE. -Jimbo
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