Since W has contacted L and Mediator, I didn't want to get left behind in this process. I met with a L today. I was very nervous in going - another step in my acceptance. When I told her a brief background of our M since MC, she commented (like many others before her) that it sounds like she was "gone" back then.
It was a very business-like meeting. I calmed down right away and discussed the process, the L's part, mediation, the whole nine yards. I need to talk to my wife and start to find some alone time to start the negotiations. Feels weird. Not exactly good, or right, but somewhat settling to me. Feels like there's no turning back - maybe there never was for her - but now I feel almost the same.
