All I can tell you right now is that in my experience this is the worst possible time you could make any long-term decisions.
You need to stand down and do nothing - which means ZIP IT, DUCT TAPE YOUR FINGERS TOGETHER, SHUT OFF YOUR PHONE - whatever it takes - until you know what you are doing and why.
Just freeze. Trust me, this is just another meltdown. You can quit. You don't have to stand.
But you can not choose wisely when you are in this frame of mind.
