It is a soothing balm to have your gorgeous presence grace my thread - both of you!
I am doing well, hanging in there. I figure I'm at about 40%, but steadily climbing!
Not really sure what I'm doing at this point, except maintaining the dark, but I'm sitting back and letting God run the show at this point, and that's actually a pretty darned good feeling!
I realized something the other day too - I had gone down this track of sort of wanting to stop having feelings for W, and it was awful - I just didn't want her to "have control" over me. It was a good feeling to get to a point in myself where it's OK to love W - it's just not OK to drag myself through the mud to do that.
So, I love her, but I also love myself. I'm moving forward with the dissolution or divorce - I owe it to my kids and myself, and I need to make sure I protect myself, but I have a different approach and perspective on it.
I'm feeling pretty good - I'm expecting and ready for rough days, but fewer and further between!
