Hey, you! I just wanted to stick my head in and say that I still think you are OKAY!!!! I hate so much that things aren't taking the path you wanted, but the reality is, that haven't been taking that path for some time now, right?
I read something the other day that said something like...the only way you fall off the road when it bends is if you keep going straight...it was worded better than that (obviously), but you get the point. It spoke to me. I'll try to find it again so you can get the whole impact!
It was amazing to me last week how sad I felt about actually turning in the papers. I wasn't expecting that, but, I do have to say, it didn't last. I've had some other moments of sadness, but they are just that...moments in otherwise pretty good days. And, I was told that it's normal that each step of the process will still be painful. I'm letting go of hopes and dreams. That's not supposed to be easy! So, I know about the sadness, and I hate that you have to feel it! That any of us do!!!
But, you've done well. You have your priorities in order. You will come out of all this in a better place, and only God knows what the future holds for you, Jon!
I hope that you have something fun planned for the weekend. I'm boycotting V-day this year. I'm lucky enough to have my birthday fall on that day! So, this year I'm turning 39 on the V-day during which I'm going through a D!!!! I've decided to have ice cream for breakfast on Saturday and call the day "Amy Day" (I think that was actually Tawnya's idea!). I'll have the boys and the weather's supposed to be beautiful here...so, we may even hit the beach. You are welcome to join us if you like ice cream and the beach...bring the kids!
Take care!!!
Love ya! Amy
Me 39 H 36 S 7 S 4 T 15 M 12 H out 8/1/08 OW confirmed 8/6/08 D final on 6/12/09...I'm doing good!
