Playhouse

[Yoyowife]

Hi Everyone,
I'm here to dust my thread off again.

I had a rough afternoon yesterday. I was getting ready to go to the eye doctor and I received a call from the OW's exH. He made small talk and then told me, "I hate to to tell you this, but my son said that your H was at OW's H Thurs. night and was still there when son went to bed." Of course my heart dropped because I had hoped that they were only having contact at work.

After I got back from the eye doctor I talked to H. He needed the title to the SUV that I had previously before my new SUV. He sold it. I had to take the title to his office. It was very hard. All I wanted to do was say, "What the he!! are you doing?" I kept my composure and never even brought it up. We talked a little about the sell of the SUV. I then asked him if he was planning on going to DD17's ballgame Friday night that was out of town. He looked at me in a very puzzled way, and said "I plan on it, unless a work emergency comes up." He had a look on his face like why wouldn't I go. I told him I was leaving and he stood up and walked over to me and hugged me and kissed me. I didn't really respond back. He walked me outside because he needed to get my new insurance card out of his truck. We talked a little bit longer and then he hugged and kissed me again and told me he would call me.

Sara, you will be proud of me that I did not start an argument with him about the info that I found out. What good does it do?

I must admit that when I drove home I had a few tears escape. I started thinking about everything. I then recalled that I know for a fact that he didn't get off of work until 8:30 or so Friday night and then went home and went to bed. DD20 confirmed this for me. I didn't ask her it was just brought up in conversation. So I know that he didn't do anything with OW Friday night. I don't know about Saturday night although he said he worked out of town late that day with his guys. Which I know to be true because DD20 has a friend who works for him. I can't say what he did when he got home though. So, what I'm trying to say is I have no idea how long he stayed at the OW's H or why. I know for a fact that she is pursuing. I evidenced that the night he was over at house and he was showing DD17's friends a picture on his phone and OW called.

I'm working harder at no contact with him. It only involves business or DDs.

Sunday night I was calling the president of the service organization I belong to on my cell phone. Instead I dialed the entry below it. It was my best friend of over 30 years. She lives out of state so we don't see each much, but stay in contact. She asked me how I was doing and about H. She told me "I'm not going to say much, but I do know that you are not getting much in return." That has been on my mind a lot ever since then. She is right. I have given so much and received so little in return.

Thanks for letting me vent.