Had a hard day today. The last few days were really good. Felt very detached and peaceful at where things were. I don't know if something happened or it was just naturally a wave, but I couldn't shake the sadness this afternoon. I tried all my usual methods and self talk but I just couldn't shake it.
I guess that's the 'This Too Shall Pass' thing...lol. Even the good will pass, as well as the bad.
I keep moving forward. Got no control, don't know where it all will land, but I have to do my best.
MySitch Me-47 STBXW-41 D-5 S-8 ILYBNILWY-01/08 Want a D- 01/09 Physical Sep-01/10 D filed-06/10 Got 50% custody=09/11 Ride that wave!
I keep moving forward. Got no control, don't know where it all will land, but I have to do my best.
The best part is even if you land in the Hudson you can be a hero. Keep it up Sully!
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
You do to have control....over everything that YOU do. You just don't have any control over your wife's actions.
Steady, you know the waves are normal, no matter what point you are at in the sitch.
I still have those days when I just feel like I want everything to just go away..for it all to be over...for good or bad, just so I don't have to walk the path any more.
This is the most physically and emotionally draining thing that any of us have probably ever had to go through....and that's whether things are going good or bad, whether you are working on the marriage or not.
Find an outlet....walk, read, exercise...take the kids out for the night without your W....go to a movie.
Being sad is normal you are grieving. Just press on. We worship heros in our culture based on fame or fortune when we all really need a regular guy to be a hero. Well, I believe staring down your problems and tackling them head on is honorable. The journey is the destination. The only way to get there is keep walking. Sometimes you rest but you keep persevering. You can handle it. Cheers
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
Right now having a bit of a hard time. Sometimes I can't get the swirling thoughts out of my head. Mostly sadness when it hits. I love my W and want to keep my family together. I know it's not my choice and I have absolutely no control, but knowing this doesn't make it easier.
I keep having to let go, over and over again. Sometimes it's easier than others.
I think there's some fear of the unknown mixed in there too. It's funny but if I knew for certain what the future held, it seems the adjustment would be soooo much easier. You got a crystal ball?
An thanks for asking how I am WT.
MySitch Me-47 STBXW-41 D-5 S-8 ILYBNILWY-01/08 Want a D- 01/09 Physical Sep-01/10 D filed-06/10 Got 50% custody=09/11 Ride that wave!
