I pray like you won't believe. I wake up int he middle of the night still clutching the cross around my neck. I just don't really see it back. He wants me to move, I believe His words. No rest. As I start to sit He steps forward and I get up and move with Him. This image shows no waiting, it is constantly moving, i am not tired. I am looking at the word and I guess I understadn what you are hinting at. I am not taking his place in this, I am taking a backseat to Him and doing as He guides me to do. there are no signs from anything, there are no words from anyone. there is only my prayers and what comes to me as His word. She needs to be alone, not text, emailed, called or seen by me. She needs to find Him, not me. she needs to see and hear from Him, not me. I cannot help but interfere, I love her too much. So I relent. What comes of this is His will. But now I am doing as He tells me. there is no waiting, He sees the pain it has caused me and is causing me. He sees the damge by focusing on her and this situation, He knows I need to get busy with my life and forget this. I am trying and I will. sad thing is, now all I can think about with her ishow many times and how long has she been unfaithful. It is definitely wrong to judge her this way, but there it is.....I will be in church this weekend, no doubt. I need to sit and listen, to watch and hear.....I need to feel him with me, His arm around me, I need to know where to go now...Becasue, quite honestly, I don't know....
