Have had boys 3 nights on the trot now and been awesome. so makes me want to get my own place now to have them regularly as I miss them already knowing I'll not see them til Sat lunchtime now.
Onto life stuff. MOT35 is now getting really complicated. Hard to explain in short and I wont bore you, but she wants it secret for the time being but we've been out a few times and now the small world which is the place I live, it has been said to people she would rather it hadn't that she is seeing someone. She is really panicking and worried what people think of her etc and tho not actually called quits yet, I think it will happen. That is fine and I'll respect her wishes, just annoys me that it's not for the totally right reasons, not because there is anything wrong between us, but because she is worried about what other people think.
Were still talking loads at the moment and have a break for a couple of weeks next week anyway as I'm away for a long weekend, so it might be we cool down til then. I really like her, I know she really likes me, else I would just walk away. Just feel there could be something special here so would rather give it a chance. Maybe a little break will help....I hope so.
Most down I've felt in ages, so a haircut this afternoon then a nice run and tidy up the whole house tonight to take my mind off things for a bit. Hopefully we will still see each other this weekend.
