I agree with your views of family. And yes, I do want to turn things around. I just am so beside myself because after three dark years things suddenly started to look up. Only two months later they collapsed out of the blue and suddenly I'm consulting with lawyers. Even though I should have been watching for this, it hit me like a ton of bricks out of left field.
Tonight she was still awake when I got home. I sat down and started working on the kids' valentines. She gave me back my cash card (I asked for it back so I could deposit the money into the general bank account.) When she gave it back she said "I don't know what you were planning on spending the money on but you car payment is due next week and I need X amount of dollars for the kids health insurance."
I told her (again) that I was going to put it in the bank account. Her tone seemed a bit harsh, but I let it go.
I know that nothing will change overnight, but I'm desperately trying to figure out how to stop the slide towards divorce. I'm willing to work on it another three years if I have to, but once the divorce is finalized, there's nothing I can do.