I feel really good now. It's funny how the "bad things" affect me less and less - and for much shorter periods of time.
I responded to W with an email reminding her that the point of having a dissolution was to keep lawyers OUT, and thus save money. I have no problems having a lawyer review - very smart thing to do, but they should review, not write. Otherwise, it's a divorce.
So, anyway, honestly, that's where I end. I'm not doing anything else until at least the end of February. At that point, I will probably file divorce.
I'm sad, heavy-hearted, but honestly I feel really good. Glad to sort of get this over with - glad to come to grips with the situation - glad to know that I did my best - glad to know that this has nothing to do with me, and is encapsulated in W's head.
You know what struck me today? When I am talking to others, and working, and chatting - I am so happy. When I talk about W, I'm not. Shouldn't that tell you something?
