We have made it to the other side 4

[Treese]

Mom...YR....I love calling you mom....lol

My H has told everyone it's over...that he is happy with his OW and that we are only married on paper...it hurts...

Then he will text me out of the blue and tell me things about his job or now...his ankle....then if I text back...he backs off...I don't get that...I usually answer with one word or something about s11..or sometimes I don't answer at all...it's just weird to me...this whole thing...

I hope I'm changing, becoming a more patient person...a forgiving person...friends tell me Im doing great but I don't feel it...and I'm going out on Valentines Day with a bunch of people...it's going to be a blast...I actually am looking forward to it....

Got my hair done last night...H told me I needed to cut that out...I don't think so....

And you're right about the doorbell thing...I'm so scared when it rings or someone knocks on the door...my heart drops...seriously...

I have to keep telling myself H is the one losing...I took care of him...I took care of my family...that's what I did...and I'm proud of that...It's why God put me on this earth...

While on my retreat a few weeks ago with the senior class a student told me I was a very strong woman who loves her family and promised to come to the office everyday to hug me...WEll... they have...it's amazing...I touched a childs life and it wasnt my own child...those 900 kids at that school are a blessing to me...and they know it...I am fortunate God put me there in the midst of all that love....