I absolutely understand. It was just a breath of fresh air to "hear" and know other's have fought and made it through with their spouses. I've already seen improvements in me. I'm not really someone you would describe as having lots and lots of patience. I thought motherhood had taught me a lot about that, but this, this is an even better teacher....a tougher teacher, if you will. Basically I'm just going to stay the course here and practice what my DB Coach gave me to work on and keep up with my LRT. I recently found out some good news....my father in law wants to see us make it. I was pretty sure he did, but now I know. And I killed my "social, networking" web site because it was just getting weird for me because the H and the now ex-OW/EA are both on there. I hated to see them posting on each other's pages....nothing seedy all very innocent and platonic, but I still hated it. So I stopped looking. But my girlfriend who hs been rock in all of this was on the web site and told me the ex-OW/EA has pictures of her new boyfriend plastered all over her page. She now has a new boyfriend!!! Is it weird that I sort of feel bad that my H may hurt feelings? Such a roller coaster this has been. oy vey