I am miserable today. I feel sick to my stomach. Not sure if she is going to see the lawyer today or not. I haven't heard from her since this morning.
I want to call a lawyer but I don't know where to start. I don't just want to open the yellow pages and start calling, but everyone I know hates their divorce lawyer. I can't believe I'm actually to this point. It doesn't even seem real.
I am much worse off emotionally than I was last night. I need to get it together so that I don't get upset when I see her. I started getting upset this morning when talking to my daughter. I started tearing up, so I walked away from her and went into the bathroom. The last thing I want is to upset them. It's just so hard to deal with. Mr. Lost is feeling extra lost today.
