Just taking a moment for a quick bit of journaling...
I still have a lot going on in my life...I plan on moving at the end of this month, though still haven't been able to find a place - though I think it may just mean that I have to step out of my head some more and step into the world more to look at places. I'll have S11 with me this weekend, so I thought it would be nice to take him alone with me to see a few places.
I'm starting to get some small bites on the job front...though things are still a bit slower than usual. We'll see what comes next.
On the personal front, things are moving along fine. My friendship with my new friend continues to grow - and I continue to check and monitor my feelings and my personal growth. I know that I still have much to work on in myself...and so I take time out every day to consider where I've been, where I am, and where I am going.
Interactions with B haven't changed much. She's planning on taking S2 to visit her parents again this weekend - which, though I was resistant to at first, could be nice for our baby - and also gives me the chance to spend some bonding time with S11. It will also give us a chance to start packing up stuff in his room.
The idea of moving troubles me at times - even just leaves me feeling upset and disappointed with B's pettiness. The house I live in now isn't ideal - but it was a great place for the kids - with a large living room, a pool, lots of fruit trees and space for them to play...I won't be able to afford a place like this on my own - at least not in the short term - and so moving will mean a big change for me and for the boys...hopefully, though, I'll be able to find something that they'll enjoy.
