Met with the high school counselor last Friday to talk about my S15 and we had a great, long discussion. Talked about my family and the HS C is very proud of the job I'm doing since W left and has less contact with our kids. I felt really good and went for a long walk that night. The weather is finally above 20, actually today maybe be 50. Anyway, my mom is coming over to help me start cleaning and re-organizing the house. W still sends me texts to ask how I'm doing and I tell her fine then she calls to find out what is wrong, which I tell her nothing is wrong. Then she will ask if the problem is the obvious and I say yes. I'm not sure if W still cares or is confused by her decision to be with OM. S15 still not talking with mom, no surprise from me but W is giving him space.
Me-44 WAW-42 (ILYBNILWY) S-16 S-14 M-10/17/1992 T23 Met OM 10/10/08; Bomb 12/27/08; Moved in with OM 01/27/09 Me stronger and happier everyday!
Had a good day at work, walked after wards then baked cookies for the kids and to send to the HS counselor. W, took S15 to school and that was all the time she spent with him today. W, spent about an hour with S13, I guess that's all the responsibility she wants as a mom now. I'm so glad I'm home with the boys as we ride out this roller coaster. I still miss W so much everyday but am getting support here and from family/friends.
Me-44 WAW-42 (ILYBNILWY) S-16 S-14 M-10/17/1992 T23 Met OM 10/10/08; Bomb 12/27/08; Moved in with OM 01/27/09 Me stronger and happier everyday!
Tonight my parents are bringing the kids and I dinner. Also, they are bringing over a cabinet for my kitchen so I have more storage space. It’s been nice cleaning and re-organizing the house. Even W noticed how nice it looks, I said thx. W is going away for the weekend, wonder if she'll tell the kids that she will not be around???
Me-44 WAW-42 (ILYBNILWY) S-16 S-14 M-10/17/1992 T23 Met OM 10/10/08; Bomb 12/27/08; Moved in with OM 01/27/09 Me stronger and happier everyday!
My kitchen looks so much better and W again said nice job cleaning and making changes. I said thanks. I'm starting to get mad at her for moving so fast with OM and even going away this weekend (maybe I'm jealous). Anyway, met with the Jr High counselor and he will keep an eye on S13. I have contacted the 7th grade teacher who is the team leader to let him know about what is happening at home. I'm still very worried about the kids reacting to all these changes as they are happening so fast. W is still not spending much time with the kids but that is her decision. Have more plans tonight to visit my brother and his family for dinner and a movie. W can come to the house and have dinner with the kids and we’ll see how long she stays as she always wants to rush off to OM! I guess I’m like everyone else who thought they had such a great marriage until the bomb exploded!
Me-44 WAW-42 (ILYBNILWY) S-16 S-14 M-10/17/1992 T23 Met OM 10/10/08; Bomb 12/27/08; Moved in with OM 01/27/09 Me stronger and happier everyday!
The last few times I have seen W, I have been upbeat and she mentioned how good I look yesterday. I said thanks, then went to my brother's house for dinner. Its hard to not tell her how much I love and miss her but have been holding back fairly well I think so far. Working on LRT, GAL and 180s...
Me-44 WAW-42 (ILYBNILWY) S-16 S-14 M-10/17/1992 T23 Met OM 10/10/08; Bomb 12/27/08; Moved in with OM 01/27/09 Me stronger and happier everyday!
