((SC)), I've been extremely busy, but I've glanced at your 'sitch' the last couple of days. You are hurting and I'm sad.
I know you have been the one doing most of the "work". And yes you often mostly need "support" not "advice". And sometimes the "support" we get gives us a high but keeps us moving in the wrong direction. I know you have a lot of faith in "Doc" and all those books you've read, but ... something big seems missing in all of that.
I wonder if H came on here and read and read and read and stated his case what would he say and what would I say? Would we be able to put 2 and 2 together? If someone could nail it down for you something tells me you still will not want it. Maybe I should write that book myself?