I just got a really anxious moment. I wonder when she was telling me that Monday during dinner before counseling that she can't see past the person who hurt her so badly and want him as her husband was her way of telling me that she gave up?!?!?!
Prior to Monday, she had started to say that she still hadn't found a reason to change her mind about the divorce. I thought she gave up then. She had said that as long as she's in the house, I need to accept that as the fact that she is still trying. She told me that a couple of weeks ago during my panic mode when I kept checking her temperature everyday/hour. Hope that's still true
I feel like I'm go into panic mode. I know I have an appointment to see my therapist in a couple of hours. Now I'm really getting worried.
I did call my wife this morning after my dentist appointment as I was frustrated that I thought they were going to a procedure today, but all they did was evaluate (which they did last week) to say I needed the procedure they recommended last week. Now it's scheduled for next week.
We chatted for a little bit and then I mentioned that I had this time blocked out on my calender and asked if she wanted to get together for lunch at a resturant she wanted to try. She said she may be able to leave between 11:30 and 12 but would call and let me know. Maybe that's why I'm anxious as its 11:45 and I haven't heard from her.
Why am I so stupid that I got myself into this mess.....
Me 41 WAW 36 S 3&7 M 10 yrs W files D 1/9/09 W moves out 4/18 Lost job 6/15 New job 7/27 Disc PA 8/10 (started Nov 2008!) Confronted 8/11 Admits PA & appologies for hurt 9/11 Lost Job 11/13