Trying to let go........with love!

[glamgirl]

Oh my gosh girl I had NO patience when this all began. I was flying off the handle right and left.

Telling h how he was breaking up the family, telling him what to do, being demanding, giving him the cold shoulder.

Telling him what I really thought about him when I was angry. Yikes! I wouldn't want those words repeated or recorded.

I really needed to get a grip! I prayed and prayed for patience. I prayed for love and kindness and for the anger to go away towards my h.

I have come a long way, but it wasn't without God nor was it without these threads to keep me going and to get encouragement.

I also started reading any book I could get my hands on to help me cope. I know this isn't easy. We have all walked in your shoes.

You don't know if your h would ever return. Only God knows that. He won't return with how you are handling things now. All he wants to do is get further and further away from you. He just wants to be left alone. You make his head spin.

You don't think my h was there. He just didn't want anything to do with me. I believe he still loved me deep inside, but it was buried and by me finally leaving him alone he was able to think, process life and eventually be drawn back to me.

He still says that the anger is what keeps him from coming home, so we still have much work to do, but at least there is progress and we are closer today than we were almost 3 years ago.