Trying to let go........with love!

[Silent Chrleader]

Hey, Friends!!

{{{Glam}}} I can't imagine you without patience. You are the "Unconditional Love Guru" extraordinaire!!! You really inspire me! And I really appreciate you sharing your experience with me.

he is dating and you two are doing MC? Not gonna work

{{{new 2}}} No, we are not in MC. We have had C sessions together, mostly to talk about S17, but H refuses to even discuss the M. The "together" session I postponed to next week stems from a backslide I had last week in response to finding out he is dating. I told him that the only thing I didn't understand about this whole thing is why he refuses MC. He said he would like to answer my question, but would like to do it in session so we have a mediator.

{{{MIP}}} Yep, it's been a "rough" couple of weeks! As I have said before, it's like climbing a ladder that I keep falling off of. I get a little higher each time, but that means when I fall it hurts more!

{{{ST}}} Do you really think I still have a chance? My H seems so far gone and he is so very stubborn. If I'm honest though, I guess I would have to say that my real problem is still a lack of self confidence. He is a good looking man, and he makes a hefty paycheck now. Our kids are grown. There's nothing really to motivate him to come back to me.


I also wanted to share with y'all something that happened this morning. If you've been following my threads, you may remember that last month I got "hit on" for the first time in my life by a fellow commuter. Since then, if we see each other on the bus, we will say "Hi" and maybe chat a little.

Last night, when I got off the bus in front of the grocery store because I had that "claustrophobic" panic attack, apparently this guy was worried about me. And when I saw him this morning, he came over to me and asked if I was OK, and said that after he got his car at the park-n-ride lot, he had driven back to the place where I got off the bus to look for me!! I found this very touching, especially because I have told him a little about my sitch and that I am standing for my M. His concern and sensitivity really surprised me because he is a real "blue collar" type of guy, and not very "polished", so I wouldn't have thought him to be the type to go out of his way like that.

This episode made me think a little about what I am doing yearning for a man who treats me so shabbily, when there are genuinely caring men like this out there? I always hated when I saw women who go for the "bad boys" who treat them poorly, and then won't go out with the sweet "nerdy" guys who would treat them well. But, I always thought what I had was one of the nerdy sweet ones......before the bomb.

Tonight I was supposed to cook dinner for H and S17, but H ended up changing his mind and took S17 out instead. I am glad he is spending time with our S at least.