\My wife is going to leave me in 5 days--help!

[AFWAW]

Well, it's already started w/ my daughter. She got in trouble today at school--wrote a note w/ the "B" word and got busted! I asked her why she felt she needed to use that word and she said all girls called each other that. Told her that she needed to be careful what she said and wrote. She was acting very guilty and repentative so I told her I'd let it slide this based on all that's been going on but I wouldn't next time.

My wife called and I told her about it. She asked if it was because of this and I said I didn't know. She asked how I was and I said fine. Asked are u sure, I said yes. She then went on to say that she thought that the counselor beat me up too hard today and she did too. I said it's fine, I guess I needed to hear some it. She said well when you go in by yourself tell them what a bitch I am. I said we'll see but I don't think that and plus it won't accomplish anything. She said it might make you feel better. I said I don't think so. I don't see much point in holding on to bad memories. I told her I would remember our time fondly if she chose to end it still. She went on to remind me of a lot of bad things she had said and done to me that most of I couldn't remember anyway.

Hey, I guess I do have the ability to forgive and forget--she does not. She went on to talk about me dating. I said aren't we getting a little ahead of ourselves here. She well if you want to date while we are still married, I would understand. I said, well I won't. Are you interested in dating someone, i asked? She said no, she was just really concerned about me and apologized for a lot of the mean stuff she had said and done to me and said that she wanted me to be happy. I said well, I want u to be happy too. I asked her if out of respect for me and our marraige would she wait 2-3 months before she decided to file so she could really be certain that this is what she wanted. She said absolutely and that she would talk to me about it it that is in fact what she decides.

She said she was bored without me right now. I didn't say anything. She said we'll just see what happens. I don't really know what else to do except keep trying to change what I need to. All these emotions and jet lag piled on top of me in the last few days have been really difficult.

It really helps me to get my thoughts out here, so I'm going to keep doing it. I occasionally look back at what I wrote a few days prior and enjoy the feedback and different perspectives. I will keep everyone posted on my WAW. Maybe she will come to her senses and realize that life can be better together--who knows?