The weather has been grey, windy, stormy and cold, everybody seems depressed from all this greyness and cold. I felt it today too...I felt gloomy, melancholic, and I noticed that I start asking myself all those questions, that I know have NO answers..the WHY's and HOW's of all of this. Wondering why H left me, if I'm just not worth it, wondering if it was all my fault, wondering whether he misses me...you know all the bad stuff. I went to FB and saw him and ow on a picture together, very cosy. It hurt. I shouldn't have looked. It's too hurtfull, the easy internet access we have nowadays...especially in this situation. I need to protect myself from it, from my own curiosity.
Well, I don't mean to sound so down, I've been doing well and have been quite happy lately, so I know it's just a mood caused by the weather...I have asked God a few times today to help me get back on track and stop thinking about all the sad stuff.
Ok guys, take care xxx thanks for taking the time to read this ! xxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Cinders, Sorry you are down but I have no doubt in my mind that you will feel better soon. Your like me when it comes to down days...they don't last.
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I went to FB and saw him and ow on a picture together, very cosy. It hurt. I shouldn't have looked. It's too hurtfull, the easy internet access we have nowadays...especially in this situation. I need to protect myself from it, from my own curiosity.
How did you see there pic on FB? Was it just a profile pic? I'm guilty of this also. I have looked at her fb/myspace pages too using my friend's password that he gave me, but the only person that ends up getting hurt is me. Although usually after the hurt subsides, I find myself even stronger than before. I guess that saying what doesn't break you only makes you stronger is true. I can't wait for the day where both me and you are no longer affected by the actions of the ow and husbands. One day we'll get there, I think we just need more time. But look how far we have come already!
Yes, it's her profile picture...and YES, after the pain and sadness and insecurity and all subsides, I too feel STRONGER and usually move along a few steps in this life !
We will certainly get there ! I am sure of that !!!
Sending you lots of hugs and kisses ! xxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
You know it's funny, we are told not to snoop and I understand why. But sometimes I think if I have never snooped I would be really naive to a lot and I wouldn't have moved on as much. Everytime I find something out it helps me let go more and more.
Not that I am advocating snooping, especially if you want to save your marriage. Because now I know too much and I don't think I could ever get past what he has done and take him back. So for all those who really want their marriage back one day, take it from me, don't snoop. It just dampens that desire.
I am sorry you are a bit down. Yes, this weather does that to you. We also had a black sky today and very strong winds. But spring is just around the corner and the sun will shine again.
Just wanted to pop in and say that I had a good night's rest and am feeling good again ! H just came by to pick up the kids, and they are off to his place for the night, instead of tomorrow night. (He asked to switch, it was fine by me)
I'm off in a bit to see Revolutionary Road with a friend, I hope it's a good movie...anyone seen it yet ? Comments ??
Tomorrow I plan to sleep in a bit, it's exhausting this year round early waking up with the kids, so tomorrow is MY day ! Relaxing morning and some makeover time !
Ok, just wanted to let you know all is good again ! Much love !!
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
By the way Revolutionary Road, was very 'heavy'.....not sure I liked it so much...life's dramas....I guess, I want to believe in a possible happily ever after. Oh well, had a good time with my friend.
Off to watch 'Men in Trees' on TV....I love that show !
Take care xx
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Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
