You have all the power you want. Newbies don't realize this, most old timers don't either. You have all the control. You're still marrried or not married because of your decision to either dig your feet in and not get divorced or to sign papers.
You feel like crap because you decide too.
Life isn't fair, embrace it and suck up the pain. What idiot told you life was fair?
You don't want to be married? Do everything you're not supposed to do...like all the old crap, confrontation blame and guilt, telling them that they need to figure out why their f-ed in the head for example)All the stuff that never worked with any other relationship.
You don't like yourself? Change.
You choose, your choice to take their crap or ignore them. Your choice to believe whatever it is you need to believe to make it through, your choice to get sucked into their drama or to rise above it.
Your pain in this, is your choice.
Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK
