The weather has been grey, windy, stormy and cold, everybody seems depressed from all this greyness and cold. I felt it today too...I felt gloomy, melancholic, and I noticed that I start asking myself all those questions, that I know have NO answers..the WHY's and HOW's of all of this. Wondering why H left me, if I'm just not worth it, wondering if it was all my fault, wondering whether he misses me...you know all the bad stuff. I went to FB and saw him and ow on a picture together, very cosy. It hurt. I shouldn't have looked. It's too hurtfull, the easy internet access we have nowadays...especially in this situation. I need to protect myself from it, from my own curiosity.
Well, I don't mean to sound so down, I've been doing well and have been quite happy lately, so I know it's just a mood caused by the weather...I have asked God a few times today to help me get back on track and stop thinking about all the sad stuff.
Ok guys, take care xxx thanks for taking the time to read this ! xxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
