Dude you've got to stop letting her control your emotions. You're letting her walk all over you still. There's your 2x4.
What do you mean you asked her if you could get a hotel room? Why did you even need to ask for permission. You're a grown MAN start showing her that. I'm not saying be uncool about it, but it's obvious you're still worshipping her from your posts.
Think of a time when she totally treated you like dirt and get a little angry. I think that's what you need right now to get your self-respect back.
Did you see the movie "Dodgeball"? In it is a character whose W walks all over him. And it wasn't until he got downright angry that he found the power within himself to succeed.
She's held your balls long enough and it's time for you to get them back. Sorry that's what a friend of mine told me and believe me, it did wonders in my DB efforts.
Hope that wasn't too harsh.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
