Maybe for now your goals should focus on you, not your wife. Whether she smiles or doesn't, laugh or doesn't, what does that really have to do with you, or the M?
DB'ing is about YOU. Your goals, your life, your journey. Go out on Saturday night, so that YOU can have some fun. Whether your wife hears about it, speculates about it, whatever -- make your life about you and your son, not about your wife. It seems like interactions w/your wife bring you down. Try fewer interactions - only having to do w/your son. Focus on what keeps you positive -- including the time with your son. Appreciate those things.
And when you're out on Saturday - NO WIFE TALK! If someone asks how you are - smile - say "doing fine". Talk about your son, talk about the funny movie you watched, talk about whatever sport is going on there - NO WIFE TALK!!
You're doing great - just put your focus squarely on you. And always listen to PM!!
