STBX picked up D8 last night and actually arrived relatively unannounced. So she came in the apt. actually took off her coat and chatted for a while. Meanwhile, D8 was downstairs with my parents. It was strangely kind of nice to be in a room together. I have felt a little melancholy in her voice recently but she is no different than everyone i guess....it comes and it goes.....you can't live with someone for so long and just erase them from your mind / heart. Although some WAS on here seem to have an easier time of it. At one point during our conversation, she actually called me "my love" which is was her favourite (actually our favourite) term of endearment. I just continued on without even looking her way....when I did look her way, she was very embarassed and had her face in her hands....I did not make her feel any worse. I just said something like old habits die hard or something similar. Anyhow D8 seemed very happy to have spent a three day weeekend with me and equally happy to see her mom. When they left, I could not help but think what a waste, what a shame that we complicate our lives way more than we should.... On the dating front, I have come to almost a complete halt....I am not moving as quickly as I once was. If and when I feel like starting up again I will make some calls. That is where I am today....tommorow may be different....at least I do not have to worry about nuying a gift for Valentine's day!
