My first step out of Newcomers

[Can it work]

Thanks for your comments Naej. Yesterday did turn out to be a fairly good day. I watched a good comedy movie last night and had a couple of good chats to friends and family on the phone. It all helped keep my spirits up.

It's first thing in the morning again as I've just sat down at my desk. I'm not feeling overly joyous this morning but then I'm not feeling as bad as I was yesterday morning either. I guess it's just going to take me a bit longer to wake up to an empty house on the mornings I don't have wee man. I get him tomorrow night so hopefully we'll have a good time.

I was thinking about how to make progress with my W last night and pretty much drew a blank. I have very little contact with her at all at the moment and I think she's fairly unaware as to how I'm living my life. I'm not sure how she's living hers either for that matter. She sent me a text yesterday and it had an X at the end of it. I'm not going to read anything in to that as I'm sure it's just force of habit for her. Anyway, when I texted her back, I left out the X. Small things but I have to be consistent in my actions.

I have to meet my W and go to the bank at some point today because there's some problem with splitting our accounts. The one thing I find very hard is that every time I'm with her now I really struggle to think of anything funny to say. I would love to make her laugh again. I think I'm going to have to make that a goal - Make my wife laugh by something I say. It's only a baby step but I know I have to get her as a friend before there's ever a chance she's going to come back. One problem we have there is that we were never friends before we started dating so it's uncharted territory there.

It's my intention to contact a DB coach when I get paid at the end of the week. I'm only going to go for the single session to begin with to find out how much of a help I think it's going to be. Afterwards, if I feel good about it, I'll book a further 3 sessions. Just have to see how it goes though. Watch this space for the results.....